So its been a while since I have been on to blog.. Life has been very tramatic and life changing in the last month.. Very tough :(... New Years Eve was one of the worst days I will ever have to face. My love, courage, strength, happiness & heart will never be the same. My amazing Brother In-Law took his own life at 11:57 P.M on Dec 31, 2011.. My sis and I were among him while this took place.. Something so tramatic that has torn me up beyond words. My heart aches so much for my sis and her kids.. Just not understanding why is something that will always cross her mind.. This was not Joe.. Joe was a hardheaded, dedicated, loyal, honest, passionate & loving Husband, Father, Son, Brother & Friend... He was the ROCK of our family.. He always would tell you exactly what he thought even if it was not what you wanted to hear.. and thats what we loved about him... It may hurt your feelings but its what needed to be said... I just wish I could take back my last 5 minutes with him.. Words can never ever be taken back exspecially in this case where I'll never get that chance... Something was so out of the ordinary that night with Joe.. Its like something had taken over his Body.. No joke.. I was scared.... Its as if the devil had taken over.. I know that sounds crazy but standing in the moment with him thats exactly the way My sis & I felt... Somethings will never ever be normal again.. My sister lost an Amzing husband who adored everything about her, He was so proud to have my sister and he showed it. Seaera my oldest niece lost a father that she idelized. She is a little blue eyed, blondee tomboy princess that craved outdoors just like her daddy, she started going on hunting trips with him, they went ice fishing the morning of the tragedy and I am so thankful she got to spend the last day with the man she looked up to most.. Sydney there middle girl..the one that always has a cheezy little smile who loved to teez her daddy and who did school projects together all the time... And Talon Hunter daddys little boy.. He was so, so proud when he finally got his little little man.. Camo was Joe's dreams for this little stud.. He is still so little to understand or even to remeber this but he will soon be the man of the house and will follow in his fathers footsteps and rule the house!!! He has so many uncles that will start him out young & early to follow his daddy's hobbies!!!!
Joe, I miss you so much. My heart has a huge empty space in it that NO brother will ever be able to fill.. Im so sorry for the last arguement we had and I hope that you know that it was anger coming out of me and not the truth.. I do forgive you for the things you said to me.. I am so extremly mad at you for leaving My sister and your children without a decent goodbye.. They deserved at least that Joe.. You took the easy way out of life.. I know that it was not you that did this.. I know because you would have never taken your own life to begin with but in front of My sis and I was again something you as being human would have never did.. You were a great Brother to me Joe, Thank you for being there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on or a home to sit and giggle at.. LOL so this is random but on April Fools last year Garrett and I got in a fight so I went to my sisters after work and ended up there all night drinkin Joe's love "Whiskey" and we started Prank calling people( ya who does that anymore) Us oviously.. Bahaha I'll never forget that night Joe.. That was such a fun memory with you and my sis!!! You would always succeded anything you put your mind to. As long as you had a whiskey. duct tape, nails, and a hammer you would make it work!! Joe I love you so much and will never ever forget the man you were and what you believed in.. Thank you for being such a great Brother and Uncle to my babygirl.. She adored you Uncle Joe!!! We miss you dearly.. Rest in peace Brother!! Muahh
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