Life

Life.. What a great subject to Blog on these days.. My life has been Crazy, Kaotic, Happy, Sad, Angry, EMOTIONAL, and Stressful.. A little of everything has been going on in this life of mine.. This year has been a very emotional year in general.. SO much has happened that I never thought could happen.. There has been very Great Amazing things that have happened in 2012 but also a few things that have left a empty place in my Heart..

Just to name a few on the Great Side:

*I Married the most amazing man in the world that I call My Best Friend..

*We are Expecting another Beautiful Baby Girl this November & can not wait to meet her..

*We got to meet Our New Niece Bella in July which was a great Blessing to our family..

*Finally have felt a peace about separating My Daughter from her mother & father..

*Reunited with all My Real Dad's side of the family, have not seen them in about 10 years

*Gracie Mae started 4 year Pre-School

*Koyle Ray started Kindergarten

To name a few on the Bad/Sad side

* I lost my brother in-law on Jan 1, 2012

* Garrett lost his job in Jan which had to lead us out of our home in which we worked so hard for

*My Dad passed away on May 7, 2012

*Spent way to many hours in a hospital watching him suffer to add to my father passing

*Lost another good friend to Suicide this month

So my point to this blog is that in all honesty you never know what GOD is capable of & that some moments with your loved ones may be your last, SO  every single word you speak, hug you give or smile you pass may be the last time someone gets to experience it... I have so many blessing in this great life that I looked past eachday until so much was taken from me, now I make sure to never let any special moment slip threw my fingers :)

This fits perfect into my thought I just put out :)

One Lucky Girl

1. As we were driving home from Garrett's Grandma's the other night, Garrett out of no where says Babe. i just want you to know that I love you more than I have ever Loved anything in my whole life.. He said you are my dream come true and I feel so Blessed that I found you :(. It literally brought tears to my eyes because he was so serious and he was so sure about what he was saying to me. And for him to say BLESSED thats a huge deal right there!! He has got to be the sweetest husband anyone could ever ask for.. He lives in fear everyday that I am going to up and leave, only because of what happened in his past.. If anygirl ever knew that he is the best guy in this world.. He has given me so mcuh to believe in when it comes to our relationship.. He amazes me eachday by the sweet text's I get at 5 am or 3pm or 6 pm..Anytime during the day is a new surprise for me!! Of course we have our days that not everything is perfect and we do argue. But we never ever let them days drag us down we just argue for a moment and then we are over it. We have learned that fighting will never solve what we are having an issue with and that talking and loving each other is what makes us push on!!! I am Truely blessed myself that I married my best friend and the one I know makes me a better lover!!! So just wanted to let him know that he is amazingly perfect and I love him so so much!!! Muahhh

Back to the Grind!!!

So it has been no nice enjoying all these summer days with my Little Miss.. But it is defiantly a struggle with me only working part-time.. No extra money for anything :(   I did get all Grace's school clothes bought this past weekend which was not to bad, all we have left to buy is a few more pairs of shoes and accessories! I think that with Kloee coming in 14 weeks and knowing I have SO much to buy is very over whelming.. my mom and sister are buying me a Stroller/Car seat.. Garrett's Mom is buying us a Glider/Ottoman and Grandma Karen and Susie are buying our swing!! They are throwing me a shower in Oct.. So I should not be as stressed as I am.. Even though babies require a lot of  attention, they do not need the best of everything and I have came to the conclusion that the basics are going to be just fine! with Grac we went crazy and I had to have the Best of the Best and literally it was a waste of money.. and she could have cared less.. So I've learned to buy what fits the budget not what breaks the bank or impresses people!!! SO here are a few things I have picked out for Kloee before her little amazing life starts!!!
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I have done some major research on these swings and they seems to be one of the best out there! Just have not found a color I like....

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I found a cradle similar to this one. It is more square and does not have wheels!! Garr & I already bought the material to make the bedding for it!! Its going to be darling!!

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This is exactly the color I am wanting. Her crib, dresser and changing table are all white and her bedding is pink, white and brown so this would be PERFECT!!

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Now for the little stuff.. I plan on breastfeeding so have not looked much into bottles or any of that stuff. But my question for any moms out there reading this... I have heard very good things about the new favoritism of the Cloth Diapers??? Anyone ever used them with the changing plastics?? I have had a few ladies told me they prefer them.. ???? Just curious? Im a total Huggies fan myself but have had this new trend on my mind... Anyhow thats just a little list of items ion store for Kloee!!! Lots more to post Later!!

Been a While!!!

Well it's been a little bit since I have posted.. Life has just been busy and good!! We have been enjoying summer as much as possible, It is a a HOTTT one this year so it is a bit hard to enjoy the summer while being hott and miserable!! We have been doing Lots and Lots of swimming!! I only work Part-time now so I am off at 2:30 everyday and only work everyother Sat. so as soon as this Mama is off work Grace & I are always off to the Pool or some kind of adventure!!! Working Part-time has been Fantastic!! I wanted to be sure that I got as much time with my princess before little sis kloee comes!! I am having major anxiety about having another little one while still trying to raise a little one.. Im so scared she is going to feel left out and like she don't get the attention she deserves anymore.. I literally cry ALL the time when she is not with me and she is with her Dad. I feel so lost without her, Just breaks my heart to have to split up her sweet little memories she is making. She was in the Little Miss Tooele County and I literally was boling in the stands when she walked on stage!! She is just growing up so fast and she looked SO BEAUTIFUL!! Garrett thinks I am crazy cause I cry all the time but I tell him, it's your fault you did this to me :)!! JK I am really happy to be expecting another little princess, just so nervous for her to come!! The only thing we have bought so far is her bedding and 2 U of U Onsesies!! We have so much to do and have to start all over with this one!! So I guess all we can do is a little at time!! And I really need to start getting Crafty again like I used to be!! Life is just so diffrent this go around then it was when I was Pregnant with Grace.. but it's not a bad thing!!! I can not believe its already almost time for Grace to go nback to school.. She is super excited to! I have not even started shopping at all :(... I have been a major slacker oviously!! I guess One good trip to the city is all I will need to get it done!! Se loves going shopping with her Mama now that she is getting older!! I love our shopping playdates, they are the best!! Anyhow I better get back to work so I'll catch up with ya'all later!!!

My Princess at 2012 Little Miss Tooele County!!!

Just a Glimpse...

Muah

Our picture table.. Need to find a better one

Grace holding our rings

Could not get my ring on ..Haha

..My Honey and I..

Love this one!!

Congrats Hugs

Grace

My Fat Belly & Grace

Mom Grace Dad

Grace. Syndey. Seaera. Talon

Mom Tina. Garrett. Dad Jim

Our Cute Cupcake! Thanks to one of my Besties Jamie Trujillo

Garrett & Marcus

My Mom. Brother. Sister

I love you ALWAYS.. FOREVER & NO MATTER WHAT

Today is the Day!

So I am really exciyed for today! My new baby niece Bella Marie Garcia will be here in about an hour!! Can NOT wait!! She is going to be so beautiful. Seems like just yesterday we found out Tiffany was excpecting and now the day is here!! So as soon as I meet her I will post pictures!!! Love you Bella I can not wait to meet you!!!!

..Baby OH Baby..

We went to the Dr last friday and got to see our little Pea.. Garrett was so Excited for this appt because we got to find out what we were having! We ended up with a full room of People!! Garrett, Grace, My Sis, My Mom, My Dad, 2 Nieces, My Nephew & I.. Whoosh it was crazy! Garr was not to happy that they all came but got over it! We have always made that day special and involved eachother when we get to find out the sex of our baby!! So as the Dr was looking around trying to get the little one to open the legs she asked so any Ideas?? Garrett jumped up and said YES its a Girl!!! lol it was so cute!! He wanted his own little Princess so bad & thats what we are having is a little Baby Girl!!!! Grace is so excited aswell!  I am essatic that My Hubby & little Darlin are so pleased with what we are having!! Her name is going to be Kloee Marie Hatfield!!We have had a girl name picked out  FOREVER but no boy names so it was good it was a girl!! I will post pictures soon.!!!

It's Official

So glad that we are Finally married.. It seems like it has been a lifetime of waiting and planning! Everything went amazing and I am SO thanksful for Garretts family and how great things turned out!! Even though it was Nasty Hott outside we managed to make it threw the heat and say  "I DO".. I was Very emotional during the whole ceremony.. Just such a huge step in our life and in Our childrens lives.. But I believe it was one of the best choices I could have ever made. Grace adores Garrett and his family so I knew it would never be a problem for her!! Life has been wonderful since that moment.. I believe it finally gave us a sense of Faith & Calmness..Knowing that we are now one and not two anymore and that nothing will ever interfear with our Love for eachother!! Garr is so cute. He calls me Wife  24-7 and he loves,loves,loves saying it! So if I say anything other then Husband it breaks his little heart!! He is so Proud that he is finally a Husband and can call me his Wife!! I don't mind one bit that he is so proud of it!!! He is such an Amazing guy and I was fortuanate to find him!!! The only thing that could have made our special day better was if we could have had Koyle there.. It broke all of our Hearts... We did get to see a little Video of him that day of him telling us he loved us but that was not enough.. This is a whole diffrent subject so I will get back to this later....  But Life is great and SO happy to finally Be Linzi Lee Hatfield :)!!!

Posts...

So I was reading threw all my blogs threw out the last year and a half and its funny to go back on whats happened in that much time. All the good times and all the BAD times, and all the anger I have towards certain people...  I just have to say that I am one of the nicest people you could ever imagine. I would do anything for anyone UNTIL you step in my way of life!!! Luckily someone finally decided to take a plunge and back the H off of whats mine and not there's!!! I think once you move on from something/someone that's the choice you made, even if you regret it or wish you could have it again there are other oppurtunity's in life that have came around for that other person and she/he is quite happy with what they have found..So she/he happens to be so thankful that the other person walked away from them... So I am thankful myself that they walked away aswell.. I have never been so happy with my life and with where it has taken me.. So Thank You!!!! You gave me what I have always wanted!! Very Blessed with the choice you made!!!!!

WoWzaaa

Awe 15 more days until I am married!! I can not wait.. Still lots to do but luckily we are having something super simple!!! We will actually be married Sat June 30th morning at the Grantsville court house where My uncle is the Mayor and kindly asked if he could marry us!! Then that night we are having a reception!! I still have not found a dress... I am showing majorly with this baby so I have been putting the dress shopping off until next week.. One of my Besties Jamie is going with me..So we will see what I end up with!!! I'm thinking a yellow dress!! Gar is going yellow for his accent color so yellow may be a good choice for me as well!! Can't get to fancy with a baby bump :)  SO we got another new toy... Well I call it a toy because Garrett is like a little kid in a candy shop when it comes to this new little toy!! Well BIG I should say.. So here it is!!!

Garrett"s New Baby... We absolutely love it tho!! We took this picture tuesday night, we went up to the top of middle with Garretts brother and his little lady...and it was wuit the ride.. Its tough to bounce like crazy for 30 min up a canyon while prego.. I was in pain by the time we got home... but it's so beautiful up there.. I can not believe how big the Coppermine has got since last year!!

I know this post is all a little of rambling thought's but I am in a great mood today and just felt like talking away. Life is so amazing right now, things could not get much better.... Talk to you all Very soon!!!!

27 DAYS....

So... I can't believe there is only 27 more days until we are finally married..  I am beyond happy about it. I feel like we fall in love more and more eachday.. Exspecially being pregnant I feel so filled with Joy for our future and what is to come!! We have had many struggles in the last 2 years but we managed to puch them past us and make life happen for us and our children.. Garrett is my Best Friend, My Lover and the soon to be Father of our child oh and My LOVE MONKEY if you ask him LOL... He is everything I ever imagined in a man for me... I adore him, his son & his family more then words can describe!! I just cant wait to finally do this and make it a Forever!!! I love you babe and can't wait to finally be Linzi Hatfield like you have begged me to be for 2 years now!! Its finally gonna happen.. Whooo Whooo!!!!

LIFE IS A MYSTERY

Life has been very selfish to my sis and I this year.. After loosing Joe in January we did not imagine we would be going threw something else so tramatic... Well turns out we had to suffer another lose. My dad passed away on Monday.. We sat by his side for a week praying he would come out of a coma.. but unfourtanitly we had to make the choice of taking him off life support and letting the amazing heavenly father take him home. We spent every moment with him for them last 28 hours that he made it on his own.. He was fighting so hard to stay for us but finally he let go..  I know he is now at peace and a brand new healthy man.. Im hoping he gave Joe a BIG ol kick in the ass when he got up there.. lol he told my sister that when he see's Joe he was going to give him an earful... My dad had many problems in his past.. Drugs took over his life and thats what put a damper on our relationship with him but he had been clean for 5 years and was finally trying his damdest to be a part of our lives.. I did tell him last April that I forgave him for all the things he missed out on and I wanted my kids to know there Grandpa.. He was such a hilarious guy. Always making us laugh. He is going to be missed dearly!! I love ya Dad.. Hope your playing the best Baseball game you ever Imagined, cause you deserve the BEST!!

Baby On Board... & ... Wedding Planner

So here its official!! There is definatly a little baby Hatfield!!! Went to my 1st Appt yesterday and everything went great!! We got to hear babys heartbeat for the 1st time!! Always makes life so much better.... When I was Pregnant with Grace I had Gestational Diabetes really bad.. I had it so bad I had to take Insulin Shots 4 times a day.. It was Miserable. So I got the nasty sugar drink yesterday and they are having me do the test much much earlier then usual. So im praying that all comes back good with this baby..  We shared the news with our families and they are super excited about it!! Exspecially Garretts family.. Im so blessed to have them in my life. They have been so Amazing to Grace & I. They all tell me ALL the TIME how greatful they are Gar found me.. And I thank them aswell for sharing him with me.. We are planning our wedding and its just so crazy to think in 2 months we will be married Finally..  Garrett has been such a trooper in planning aswell.. He tells me he is so much more pre-pared and happy about this Marriage then his last.. His last was a BAD-STUPID CHOICE as he says and he hates knowing he spent all his money & his parents on something that was not important... So he is extremly happy about getting married  this go around!!! Still back and forth on colors but we will get them figured out soon hopefully.. Still thinking Yellow and Gray??? Our wedding is going to be outdoors and we are making pretty much all the decor.. Some yellows are just hard to match up but I guess all colors can be that difficult...So I guess we just need to buck up and make a decision!!!!!! Im a little nervous about dress shopping.. Im already getting a little Pudggy so by the end of June I cant imagine what my pudge may look like..lol but its all worth it!!! We are doing a single cake with cake pops aswell!! So excited for that part !! My aunt makes wedding cakes so it works out pretty swell!!!!! Well im just about off the clock so better get rollin out!! Be back soon!!!!! Happy to share my news with ya'all!!

So its Saturday and I am stuck here behind this lovely desk of mine:( I just hate working Saturdays when the weather is so perfect & beautiful.. But on the bright side I guess Im off at 6 to enjoy a bit of the sun light!! We finally get Koy tonight for Easter tommorrow !!!! Last year we just had Grace and it was sorta bittersweet without him!! Its so amazing to finally have all our family together with out the Crazy 'B' interfering with our life.. I'm glad she finally came around to realize that Koy needs his Dad more then she thought.. And his Mommy Linzi and Sister Gracie.. Him and Grace miss eachother so much when 1 is there and the other is not... They just enjoy having someone to play with when they are home. I try my best to play barbies and trucks for as long as I can to entertain them but Momma can only handle so much!!! We are super excited for Easter tommorrow. The Easter bunny has kinda been slacking this year though.. I just bearley got there shopping done this morning.. With Gracies bithday party tmrw and Easter I have been maxed out.. Also with being prego all I feel like doing is sleeping. I have been so stinkin tired 24-7. I hope it changes before long cause I hate feeling so lazy all the time.. Any how  Easter.. I am finally finished shopping, just hope I can get it all together before 8 Am rolls around in the morning.. i will have to get Dad on duty for this easter I guess.. I dont even think he would know how to put a basket together..Lol.. Im sure he could but would not be to pretty!!! So I'll post pics monday and show ya how he did :)!!! Happy Easter Everyone!!!!!

TIme has went flyin by :)

Today is Garrett & I 2 year Anniversary.. Whooo Hoooo. JK but wow has time flown right on by.. Seems like just a few months ago we met...  We have gone threw many, many struggles threw out the years but oviously we have fought threw them to make this work.. I have to say it has not been easy at times for either of us. We promised eachother that no matter how hard it is we will NEVER give up on eachother or this relationship.. We fight for a few minutes and dont speak to eachother but at the end of the day we say our sorry's and make up because we know thats the right thing to do.. He cracks me up when he gets in these crazy silly moods, he is always check-in on me during the day to see how my day is going, he always rushes home to be sure the house is clean before I get home, he loves to surprise me with flowers at work or candle light bubble baths, he makes sure he is holding my hand where ever we are even if its just on the couch or in the car, he always seems to find a way to amaze me.. He is my everything and I am so glad we crossed eachothers paths.. I love you SO much babe and always know your My #1 ;) lol Happy 2 year Suga Plum!!!! Muah

Soon to be Mommy.. AgAiN..

SO I have some great new to share!!! Finally Garrett's dream has come true!! He has been wanting to bring a new baby Hatfield into this lovely life since 2010.. Well its happened!!! I have been kinda sketchy about publishing it on here because we have already lost 2 babies together and the 2nd time was so heart wrenching.. So I have taken every pre-caution to being a healthy mommy for this sweet little life in my tummy...  We did not expect it to happen before we get married but that is just fine... We planned on getting married no matter what so no change of plans there...  We are getting married June 28th even though Ill be a chubby little bride!! Thats the date we choose in Jan so we are sticking to it!!!!  So I am 6 weeks and 4 days... Making my due date @ Nov 26!! WE are just praying that all goes well with this pregnancy because we are so Happy about it, Aswell as all of our family and our kids!!!! Only sad part about this is I am already showing and none of my worl clothes fit me already :( Awww I feel like a little Rolly Polly. LOL but its expected!!!!! So we are off to Ross tonight to buy this Momma a new Chubby Waredrope!!!

Paundering...

Where have I been.. Holy Talitto I  am a slacker.. Just get caught up in life and work to sit down and blog.. Been a very busy month for this Mamma.. Finally got all moved in and settled :( I do miss my house though.. BUT I am enjoying being right by my Sis and not having a huge house to clean :)... After we were all settled we went to St.George the 1st week of March with all My Man's Family.. Aughh it was such an AMAZING get away..We didnt have the kids so it was quit relaxing.. Garrett's cousin plays softball for DIxie State so we went and watched all her games.. It was so etertaining and defanitly makes me miss Softball... We played on a Co-Ed team our first summer dating but with my work schedule and kiddos it was just to dang hard to manage... Garrett finally got a job Thank Goodness.. I was running out of money and kindness.. It is very tough to pay for 2 cars, insurance on them cars, bills, rent, utilities, satalite, gas, groceries, kids needs & all others that feel in the road ALL on one Salary.. Its a good thing I make decent money and Garrett has a GREAT Mom.. She has been our little Savior the last couple months.. Its great to have someone to help just incase you run into a Problem... He just started this past Tue. So lets croos fingers this works out... We Want So BADLY to get married but just have not been able to save money with Holidays and him not working so he better get a FEW jobs to pay for the wedding I want, JK I am a simple girl and am going to do most of it on my own.. Only because of PINTEREST.. lol!!! I've made some awsome items for our Appt since being a Pin Freak... Still cant decide on colors or place but I think we are getting closer to the BIG day that Garrett talks about on a daily bases.. He has been ready to get married for the longest time also wants a new little one ASAP.. Im a little timmed about the little one though, I just wanna be at least a little prepared with money before we bring a little one into this thing we call LIFE... My little one is turning 4 April 10th.. She is getting so BIG and mature, kinda makes me sad.. But she is now my little/BIG sidekick.. She is attached to Mommy's hip when she is home.. SO she wants a Zebra party, which is super exciting to me cause I love me some zebra.. So my friend makes darling cakes so we are getting her a 2 tiered zebra cake w/hotpink.. I can't wait its going to be darling!!!! So Ive been shopping away for her party and I can't wait to put it all together when the time comes!!!! Anyhow gotta go,catch ya later!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rambling Thoughts

So life has been very hectic the last 7 weeks.. Everything that went on in Jan with my Brother passing plus packing my sisters house up, getting her moved into her new place, unpacking her stuff, organizing her house, decorating her house, picking kids up from school, back to my sisters in between my lunches and after long hours of work.. But finally I think she is ALL settled for now anyhow... Its been quit the journey the last 2 months... Garr and I have been in a house for almost a year now, but sad news is he got laid off so not much we can do on staying in this home.. We pay to much for me to do this on my own.. So now here we go packing AGAIN and moving our life right next door to my sister, which I am greatful for. We already have stayed with her at her new place because she is still not ready to be alone, which I am the same way so I have been fine with staying with her. So being right next to her will be a true blessing for her and I. Garrett has been with her 24-7 since he is not working and he finally feels like he is where he belongs with my sister! He is so grateful to be able to spend countless hours helping my sister hang pictures or fix a sink, just being in my sisters presence means the world to him!! He loves stepping in and being a man figure in the kids lives!!! Having something so Tramatic happen to us and loosing someone so close to us has been a huge challenge.. Not just because he is gone but also not having answers?? We both keep wondering What If?? Or why? We just want answers,which we will never get but its hard to let go of our last moments with Joe.. After seeing Joe that night, it keeps replaying in my head.. It hurts me,scares me & most of I fear being alone. I know Joe would never hurt me but Im scared.. Scared to have something happen to me that is out of the ordinary.. Garretts Grandpa, Uncles and Dad gave me a blessing on superbowl sunday & I was so emotional.. but as they finished up I finally had a sense of peace.. It was a really emotional but great feeling.. So back on this moving subject.. Im so not looking forward to moving from a 4 bedroom home to a 3 bedroom.. We have bought so much stuff for our kids rooms that now we have to down size and get rid of stuff.. Thank Goodness for Good Ol KSL!!! We put everything on there and it always works out great!!! Any how thats enough of me rambling on today.. Be back soon!!!

..My Valentine..

At first I was not looking for love, I wanted no one in my life besides my sweet girl.. for I had tottally given up on men all I could think was stay away from them, but then just for a moment I gave you a chance, I let my guard down to try again at Lust, Love & Romance.. I never Imagined that I would find all this & more.. He is my Best Friend & lover that any girl could ever dream of.. A friend I can count on to listen and understand and a lover for me to hold that is truely a good man. I love when he smiles at me with that cute adorable cheezy grin, I love that he always wants to pin me down and tickle me until I cry, I love that he still opens the door for me almost 2 years later, I love that he always has me pickout his clothes when its date night, I love that he will lay in bed and will not let go of me all night, I love that he always gives me 3 kisses everytime we part ways and I love that he tells me how perfect I am when I just wake up in the mornings..I love all the little things about him. So I want him to know he is my dream come true. I know deep in my heart that no one else will even compare to you.. Happy Valentines baby, Im so glad I met you!!!!   

LITTLE LOST BLOGGER

So its been a while since I have been on to blog.. Life has been very tramatic and life changing in the last month.. Very tough :(... New Years Eve was one of the worst days I will ever have to face. My love, courage, strength, happiness & heart will never be the same. My amazing Brother In-Law took his own life at 11:57 P.M on Dec 31, 2011.. My sis and I were among him while this took place.. Something so tramatic that has torn me up beyond words. My heart aches so much for my sis and her kids.. Just not understanding why is something that will always cross her mind.. This was not Joe.. Joe was a hardheaded, dedicated, loyal, honest, passionate & loving Husband, Father, Son, Brother & Friend... He was the ROCK of our family.. He always would tell you exactly what he thought even if it was not what you wanted to hear.. and thats what we loved about him... It may hurt your feelings but its what needed to be said... I just wish I could take back my last 5 minutes with him.. Words can never ever be taken back exspecially in this case where I'll never get that chance...  Something was so out of the ordinary that night with Joe.. Its like something had taken over his Body.. No joke.. I was scared.... Its as if the devil had taken over.. I know that sounds crazy but standing in the moment with him thats exactly the way My sis & I felt... Somethings will never ever be normal again.. My sister lost an Amzing husband who adored everything about her, He was so proud to have my sister and he showed it. Seaera my oldest niece lost a father that she idelized. She is a little blue eyed, blondee tomboy princess that craved outdoors just like her daddy, she started going on hunting trips with him, they went ice fishing the morning of the tragedy and I am so thankful she got to spend the last day with the man she looked up to most.. Sydney there middle girl..the one that always has a cheezy little smile who loved to teez her daddy and who did school projects together all the time... And Talon Hunter daddys little boy.. He was so, so proud when he finally got his little little man.. Camo was Joe's dreams for this little stud.. He is still so little to understand or even to remeber this but he will soon be the man of the house and will follow in his fathers footsteps and rule the house!!! He has so many uncles that will start him out young & early to follow his daddy's hobbies!!!!
Joe, I miss you so much. My heart has a huge empty space in it that NO brother will ever be able to fill.. Im so sorry for the last arguement we had and I hope that you know that it was anger coming out of me and not the truth.. I do forgive you for the things you said to me.. I am so extremly mad at you for leaving My sister and your children without a decent goodbye.. They deserved at least that Joe.. You took the easy way out of life..  I know that it was not you that did this.. I know because you would have never taken your own life to begin with but in front of My sis and I was again something you as being human would have never did.. You were a great Brother to me Joe, Thank you for being there for me when I need a shoulder to cry on or a home to sit and giggle at.. LOL so this is random but on April Fools last year Garrett and I got in a fight so I went to my sisters after work and ended up there all night drinkin Joe's love "Whiskey" and we started Prank calling people( ya who does that anymore) Us oviously.. Bahaha I'll never forget that night Joe.. That was such a fun memory with you and my sis!!! You would always succeded anything you put your mind to. As long as you had a whiskey. duct tape, nails, and a hammer you would make it work!! Joe I love you so much and will never ever forget the man you were and what you believed in.. Thank you for being such a great Brother and Uncle to my babygirl.. She adored you Uncle Joe!!! We miss you dearly.. Rest in peace Brother!! Muahh