Well its been a long while since I have made it one here, So many things happening in life some in which were not easy. Finally we got all moved into the new house.. Finally.. but many huge bumps in the road.. We have struggled for a while getting along I think just from stress from the move, money, just a little of everything.. Things just have not been easy on this side of the mountain.. With all this going on I have came to the conclusion that No Matter how upset and frustrated you are never say something you don't mean. Garrett has never believed me that I am over my previous Marriage, well he also don't understand that I have an amazing Little Girl that came from that So things have got to stay civil and I think it bothers him that Josh & I get along so well.. So most of our fights come from that situation. So this last week things went really bad, bad enough that I literally could not eat, sleep, talk, smile & or all of everything I do on a day to day bases.. Garr made one of the biggest mistakes of his life and it seems as if that dumb little mistake has pulled us closer together than ever. Never have I had to hear from him how embarrassed, humiliated, heart broken, sickened, saddened & mostly how sorry he is... Some things hurt more than anyone could ever imagine and I have learned that. Something so horrible has never happened to me before and its heart wrenching to have to deal with.. I am just proud that he was able to be honest about every little detail no matter if it tore me into pieces and made me cry harder than I ever have he was right beside me poring his heart and tears out as well. I truly believe he is hurting just as bad as me.. So we are both doing the best we can to push on and build our relationship stronger than ever.. Kinda saddened by our Wedding day would have been tmrw, Aug 13.. That was the day we choose but being so wrapped up in getting our new home and all the other things life has thrown our way.. So now Garrett is so head strong that he wants to get marry on 11/11/11. He says he would do it tomorrow if I would agree but I think we have plenty of time to get married.. So the last few days have been really interesting, Grace has been at her dad's so Garr and I have had lots of time together, It has been amazing.. We have not let go of each other!!! Wed I got home from work and he has been off all week cause he has been passing kidney stones all week and he had done all the yard work cooked me dinner and had a candle light bath waiting for us to just relax.. Then Last night we went tanning as usual then drove up to the top of Middle canyon and watched the sunset and talked about life and the important things that matter.. It was so great to spend that time together. He told me "I feel like I have never been so in Love with you, I guess it took making a huge mistake to realize how important and how perfect you are and that I am everything he wants for the rest of his life"...Even tho there is that huge mistake in there I have started looking past that and understanding that I truly am his world and everything will work out if it is meant to be... Sorry to ramble on and on about my life story but that's what a Damn Blog is for...... Aughhhhhhhh
Well its been a long while since I have made it one here, So many things happening in life some in which were not easy. Finally we got all moved into the new house.. Finally.. but many huge bumps in the road.. We have struggled for a while getting along I think just from stress from the move, money, just a little of everything.. Things just have not been easy on this side of the mountain.. With all this going on I have came to the conclusion that No Matter how upset and frustrated you are never say something you don't mean. Garrett has never believed me that I am over my previous Marriage, well he also don't understand that I have an amazing Little Girl that came from that So things have got to stay civil and I think it bothers him that Josh & I get along so well.. So most of our fights come from that situation. So this last week things went really bad, bad enough that I literally could not eat, sleep, talk, smile & or all of everything I do on a day to day bases.. Garr made one of the biggest mistakes of his life and it seems as if that dumb little mistake has pulled us closer together than ever. Never have I had to hear from him how embarrassed, humiliated, heart broken, sickened, saddened & mostly how sorry he is... Some things hurt more than anyone could ever imagine and I have learned that. Something so horrible has never happened to me before and its heart wrenching to have to deal with.. I am just proud that he was able to be honest about every little detail no matter if it tore me into pieces and made me cry harder than I ever have he was right beside me poring his heart and tears out as well. I truly believe he is hurting just as bad as me.. So we are both doing the best we can to push on and build our relationship stronger than ever.. Kinda saddened by our Wedding day would have been tmrw, Aug 13.. That was the day we choose but being so wrapped up in getting our new home and all the other things life has thrown our way.. So now Garrett is so head strong that he wants to get marry on 11/11/11. He says he would do it tomorrow if I would agree but I think we have plenty of time to get married.. So the last few days have been really interesting, Grace has been at her dad's so Garr and I have had lots of time together, It has been amazing.. We have not let go of each other!!! Wed I got home from work and he has been off all week cause he has been passing kidney stones all week and he had done all the yard work cooked me dinner and had a candle light bath waiting for us to just relax.. Then Last night we went tanning as usual then drove up to the top of Middle canyon and watched the sunset and talked about life and the important things that matter.. It was so great to spend that time together. He told me "I feel like I have never been so in Love with you, I guess it took making a huge mistake to realize how important and how perfect you are and that I am everything he wants for the rest of his life"...Even tho there is that huge mistake in there I have started looking past that and understanding that I truly am his world and everything will work out if it is meant to be... Sorry to ramble on and on about my life story but that's what a Damn Blog is for...... Aughhhhhhhh 
It is a blog for that very reason... You don't have to answer to anyone but yourself!!! At the end of the day, week, month or even year it is about you , that darling little girl and what makes you happy! When life gets you down and you wonder if you can go on... remember that saying "I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it"!!! What will be will be!!! Love ya Linz and you are doing great!
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